By Myself

I'd say that 3/4 of my friends are on crash diets right now. Sitting with them at lunch hurts. This is something that sucks about being an eating disorder survivor.

On the bright side, boys continue to look at me. And smile at me :) They didn't do that when I had an eating disorder.

More than that, my real friends (namely Michelle) are my friends because of my personality. If I weighed 300 pounds, she would still be my friend.

I'm reading Before I Fall by Lauren Oliver right now, and it's the best book I've picked up all year. (Yeah, I'm reading again. For 30 minutes a day no matter how late I have to stay up. Reading is the best way to learn about writing--although my writing class is freaking awesome as well) It's about discovering what's TRULY important.

And right now I'm thinking back to a fight I had with my grandma last night and how I shouldn't have said some of the things I said. Yeah, I needed a reality check. And I got one!

I'm also dreaming about Jamba Juice's new pumpkin smash smoothie. I'm not going to mention the calorie content, even though that was the first thing I searched after the first divine sip. ARGH. Some habits are just so hard to break.

But I'm fighting! And I'll keep fighting! Until I'm healed. Watch me do it.

Okay, TSL. Bring it. I'll probably just read 20 pages and then work on Downside.